The biggest source of conflict in our marriage is my job. I work all the time, and when I'm not at work, I'm thinking about work. It's not normal or healthy, but it is what it is. I LOVE my job. I built this business from the ground. Almost everything we do, from a fiscal or procedural perspective, I came up with. I did all of it. It's like a child to me. I work nearly 80 hours on a regular week. It's a lot.
On top of that, I got this wacky idea to start a blog and a Twitter that I love as much as my regular job. Maybe even more. I would quit my real job if I could live on a blog-based income.
It will probably be a cold day in hell when that happens.
And then, we have this marriage that we're working on.
It's a lot.
The kicker is that I have to spend more time working on the blog in order to get it way I want to be. That takes time away from the real job or the marriage. The marriage is usually what suffers. I'm so happy being independent and isolated that I tend to ignore the people who are begging for my attention.
Unless they're my patients. Or my Twitter friends. Then they get all of the attention that they want.
That's so fucked up.
Anyway, I'm working really hard to find a way to balance all of it. I'm not doing a very good job at this point, but I think I should get an "A" for effort. Unfortunately , that's not how the world works. All the effort in the world can still pull you an "F" if you've got nothing to show for it.
Life is bullshit sometimes.
How do you manage everything you have to do and still have a happy marriage? Or, do you have to sacrifice things that you would really like to do because you can't do it all?
As always, it's hip to be square (and off-kilter), kids.
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